A few years later my brother was 5 and I told him it was all clear to cross the road. I was wrong but there was nothing I could do. I watched him get hit by the car, go flying up 40ft in the air and land in the ditch. He survived but not without serious injury. He had a severe brain injury and several other things and was in a coma for a month before waking up. He had to go to a rehab facility and learn everything all over again. He today, 25 years later still has all the scars, speech issues and a hand that always shakes but he is alive and is doing wonderful. I however still blame the whole accident on myself because I should have looked better or tried to stop him.
In middle school I had a wonderful group of friends and was active in winter guard but once high school hit that wonderful time disappeared. Summer before high school was suspose to start I injured my knee and it required surgery leaving me no longer able to participate in sports. My best friend and I became a distant memory over a stupid boy. That set the stage for disappointment, heartache and questioning any relationship I would ever have. I opted to go thru the rest of high school with one friend until I met a boy.
I dated this boy all thru high school and slowly he began to control my every move and eventually I lost my only friend. The relationship was abusive at times but he always apologized and I kept accepting and believing that he wouldn't do it again. We eventually got married and then I became pregnant with a baby girl. Things seemed great until one day he got so mad that he pinned me up against a wall and started to hit my stomach. My baby was ok but deep in my sole I wasn't.
When my daughter was not even a year old I decided to leave my husband. Things escalated so much that one morning he broke into my home and tried to stab me and himself but I was able to get out of the house and into my car. He followed me while trying to run me off the road. The idiot followed me all the way to the police station. Now though 12 years later my ex and I are able to be more civil for the sake of our daughter.
That time in my life taught me that I could be independent, take care of myself and my baby, and that I was pretty strong. It also allowed me to meet and fall in love with my now husband of 10 years. He walked into the credit union I worked at one day and I asked him for his ID because I had never seen him before. He was not happy about having to go back outside to get it. About a month or so later I saw him again and we went out and well here we are now.
I never was over weight in school and after my daughter and son I was able to lose all the baby weight. After my son was born I decided to become a stay at home mom and became pregnant with my 3rd child. I was however not able to lose the weight from this one. I tried several diets and workouts but nothing really stuck and I had 3 small babies that took all my time and energy.
In 2008-2009 I started to party and drink a lot. I don't know if it is was me trying to relive my teen years or my early 20's because I never really did or if I was just in a bad place. I was making bad chooses and gained a lot of weight. In 2009 a family member took advantage of a situation and hurt me very badly but no one, not even my best friend believed what I said. Everyone but my husband, mother and children walked away from me. They just walked away and so did my mental state. I started to drink even more, doubted everything that I ever believed in and would just stay in my bed for days.
My husband tried so hard to help me but there was nothing anyone could do until my daughter asked me if I was going to die. That was the "light switch turning on moment" for me. At that point I was 230lbs and knew I needed to do something not just for me but for my children. I went and saw my doctor and got put on depression medicine and that helped until my brother in law died unexpectly. At his funeral I had someone ask me when I was due, I wasn't pregnant. I was devistated that I had become this person.
I ordered Turbo Jam the next week because like others I saw it on a infomercial but it looked fun. I did the program for a long time and started to eat better and I lost a ton of weight. I had gotten down to 150lbs and got off the depression medicine.
Then my grandmother who was my best friend passed away. I had never lost someone so close to me and literally my world felt like it was crashing down. I went to the only thing I knew, drinking and eating. I allowed myself to get back up to 230lbs and was then diagnosed with IBS.
April of 2013 I decided to try the weightloss thing again but I told no one because I was so afraid of failing myself again. I turned to Turbo Jam again and slowly started to see results. My friends and family started to notice a change and asked what I was doing. I was still deathly afraid of failure so I really didn't say much.
January of 2014 I finally started telling everyone what I was doing and eating. Slowly these friends and family started to turn to me for information, guidance, support and motivation. For once I felt like I was and could actually make a difference not only in my life but also in others. That was a really proud and great feeling.
Once I completed the Turbo Jam schedule I decided to order Turbo Fire and equally loved that just as much. I couldn't believe the results I was seeing. April of 2014 a year later after I started I was 160lbs and feeling amazing. The best I have ever actually felt in my life. One day my girlfriend said to me "I think you have found your calling". I thought she was a little nuts and just kinda blew it off until my family and friends started to ask for help working out. So I started having a few friends over and we would workout and I found that I really enjoyed it. I helped them with their form,understanding moves, motivation and encouragement to push themselves just a little bit harder. It made me think maybe my girlfriend was right.
I did some research on Beachbody and was skeptical and asked could I really do it. I left it at that as I started my Turbo Fire Schedule but I still was always a constant thought in the back of my mind. One day I said let's do this and I signed up. I luckily was placed with one of the most amazing, supportive and encouraging team that welcomed me with open arms. Beachbody is this amazing family structure that works because it stands behind the products and we are faces to prove it.
A few weeks after becoming a coach I decided to try shakeology and I fell in love. Not only does it taste good but it has pretty much made all my IBS symptoms disappear. I use to suffer from terrible stomach pain, irregularity, moody, fatigue, and I couldn't eat veggies without being in pain for days. After being on Shakeology for a few weeks I started to notice a difference so much that I decided I needed to tell as many people as I possibly could.
I just completed my Turbo Fire 20 week schedule and I started at 153lbs and now am 134lbs and my body has amazing muscle and I look toned and healthy. I have never been so happy!
What's next for me, well I am starting #PiYo. I want to continue to build on my strength. My arms have always been a weak area for me.
I also would like to help you! I would love to share with you amazing ideas, recipes, tips, encouragement, support, motivation, to just hold your hand or to just listen. But first ask yourself what do you want, what is your goal, and then let's make it happen as a team!
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